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I remembered earlier an (almost) teary eyed realisation last night. Over the last few months my (limited) social circle has become a social whirl. I've got to know people better whom I'd never known before, and met loads of new people who are mostly lovely. I've spent time at an LRP event where I had conversations, however short, with people who aren't trying to get something out of me (nothing to get here mate - move along please); and last night I looked around and saw a number of people I knew from different part of my life together, getting on.

While I'm not saying I'm the centre of all this, I do feel part of a social life of the kind I wanted, but never found for most of my teenage years. At university I concentrated on being someone else (mostly in an LRP sense) but now things seem pretty good, and if I don't watch out I'm going to end up feeling accepted, and even happy.


Finally - to lower the tone....

Please ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want, and I will answer it truthfully. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

Current Mood: soppy

16 lies or Lie to me
boglin From: boglin Date: April 14th, 2004 09:42 am (UTC) (Link)
1. When you were a child, what did you want to do when you grew up?
2. Something that some people might see as inconsequential that makes you happy?
3. If you woke up as oner of you LRP characters, who would you choose to be and why?
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 10:55 am (UTC) (Link)
  1. I didn't have any great plans. I remember opening the Sunday Times once and noting that actuaries earned a lot of money so I thought about that. I once thought of becoming a priest (briefly) but then I came to realise I'm actually pretty impressionable...

  2. Symmetry. In many things. It's just neat. I quite like things to be neat. I can give or take tidy as many can testify.

  3. Oooh, that's so difficult. Maybe one of the ones with ultimate power over the entire universe... Again I'm impressionable - some the recent ones win out - simply cos they look cool; and some others have degrees of control over their reality and their environment. Thinking about that, maybe I should explore ugly characters who aren't in control.
barrettyman From: barrettyman Date: April 14th, 2004 10:27 am (UTC) (Link)
OK kneeshooter in the spirit of the thing:

Why do you feel people are happy if they move to Birmingham
Is your life now what you expected it to be ten years ago.
Why don't you feel happy now?

Where abouts in the world are you these days I keep hearing rumours of you being in York or Hull or some other god forsaken place. I was thinking of doing some lannage in may if you're up for it.
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 10:49 am (UTC) (Link)
  1. People are social animals. If your friends are in one place there is a sense of comfort about being near them. Birmingham has a lot of people in it at the moment :-)

  2. Ten years ago I wasn't looking forward. Or I guess "no" because I was gearing up to training to be a teacher. And now I'm not.

  3. I am mostly happy now. I feel mostly exhausted and drained which prevents me getting up the enthusiasm to be happy. I'm also slightly worried I'm kidding myself - but not very. Insecurity I think it's called...
eddie777 From: eddie777 Date: April 14th, 2004 10:57 am (UTC) (Link)
1. What is your best quality?
2. What experience has changed you the most for the better?
3. How far do you run in the average month?
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 11:41 am (UTC) (Link)
  1. I don't feel qualified to answer that - but I'd say my ability for unconscious thought and ideas. Certainly that's the area where I continue to amaze and confuse my conscious self.

  2. University. I went with a mission, and while I didn't get what I wanted it let me leave certain things behind, and hence was the start of a road.

  3. At the moment - nothing. I mean to start again - honest. After Whitby in fact. I am an unfit man hiding a fit man inside...
nyarbaggytep From: nyarbaggytep Date: April 14th, 2004 12:07 pm (UTC) (Link)

3 more...

1 - If you could do any job in the world what would it be?
2 - What would make your ideal social circle then?
3 - What is your favourite memory?
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 01:32 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: 3 more...

  1. At the moment the only one that comes to mind is that I've often wanted to be a special advisor to the a member of the cabinet (how dull!. Politics! Politics and Politics!

  2. I don't think I have an ideal social circle in the sense of individuals - but one that is in common with that of my closest friends so I don't feel left out

  3. I don't have one that stands out. I can remember some bad times as being worse than others, but I don't have a single good memory that stands out
sixtine From: sixtine Date: April 14th, 2004 12:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
What deliberate lie did you last tell to a friend? (ie that excludes stuff like 'I'll be there in five minutes')
Of what are you most proud?
If you could be doing anything at all instead of sitting at your pooter right now, what would it be?
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 01:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
  1. "I've stopped doing it".

  2. Not sure. At the moment I like the way the Maelstrom map and coins have turned out after my involvement with both.

  3. A particular kind of roleplay with a particular kind of person
stuartmaher From: stuartmaher Date: April 14th, 2004 01:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
1) Whats your biggest regret in life
2) If you could have one wish what would it be
3) would you do LRP again if given the choice to start it again.
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 02:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
  1. I can't think of any showstoppers. There are a series of young ladies whom I met at University whom I failed to treat in the manner I would have liked to; and I kinda regret not paying any attention to my degree at the time. But would doing any better have changed the rest of my life and all the things I like?

  2. Wishes? Start small and practical - I'd like 20-20 vision, or better, without external help.

  3. Of course I would. Christ, where else would I find a community stupid enough to fall for this act...?
wulfboy From: wulfboy Date: April 14th, 2004 01:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
1) Why do you take photographs?
2) What is it that you despise most about LRPers?
3) How did you lose your virginity?
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 02:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
  1. A couple of reasons. First of all because I want to observe, I want to watch the story unfold before me and it's a good excuse. Secondly because I'm interested in the technical aspects of manipulation and am working on becoming a Photoshop-junkie. Finally because it's art innit... I need a creative hobby but my writing is sloppy and lazy, I'm fed up of the smell of isoflex and I can't work a sewing machine.

  2. I don't like LRPers who fall in and out of character with the change of the wind. I'm reminded of an early Amethyst event where a certain person while PCing just ran straight past the group of refs without batting an eyelid or admitting to any kind of recognition. I hold that in my mind as an example. Plus, like most people, most LRPers are f**kwits and I am huge intellectual snob.

  3. About three days after starting University. She was called Sarah, and it was to the background noise of Guns'n'Roses. It was not very good. She was not very stable. It was never meant to be. When I arrived in Birmingham I was a man with a mission. I like to achieve my goals. TMI yet?!
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kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: April 14th, 2004 03:04 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: Questions

  1. Stupidity. Followed by bigotry and then poor costume.

  2. Water. In alcohol - sake.

  3. Tapping out morse code on other party's genitalia with my tongue. Ok, I actually like IM. It's relatively asynchronous with an element of timeliness. I much prefer to type than to telephone. Speaking to people is good, but most people just don't know when to stop, and I'm not very good at being as clear, then rude in person...
From: (Anonymous) Date: April 19th, 2004 08:47 am (UTC) (Link)
Who would ever have figured you for a Great Big Wet?
Me, for one. Takes one to know one.
I'm really glad you've got to the good place - even if it isn't Nottingham.
And I'm asking no questions, because my dear boy I do not want to know the answers....
16 lies or Lie to me