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Corrosive Shame
Therapy for Life
On and on...
My life seems to switch between two extemes. The first is unpleasantly dull and boring where I remain undermotivated, unpressured and frankly sleepwalk my way through my work and home life. The other is where I feel pressured and frantically busy. I think that most of the time I manage to appear to be on an even keel, even when a bit of panic as an emotional release might be sensible.

This week I'm under pressure. I've got a deadline on Friday, which will mean taking a laptop and boundless enthusiasm to Whitby with me; I've not been home for a couple of nights and am going away again tomorrow. This week I've failed completely to write on LJ about my wibbly-woo-wah experiences last week, I've attended a European meeting that was indicative of the worst things about Europe and ~almost~ fixed my dad's PC, but not ~almost~ enough.

Now, as I'm on a train for the forseeable future I'll play catch-up, at least in part.

First, Steve Vai last week. This was actually far more engaging than I thought it would be. If someone had suggested to me that three hours of psuedo-prog would get any mileage from me I'd have laughed, but he was a real professional, a real musician and you have to respect someone who brings their favourite carpet on tour with them. I did write some notes in my phone but as it's just run out of battery I'll have to try and remember all the pithy comments I had stored up. I'm sure there was something about some of the solos sounding like the extended mating call of the bottlenose dolphin; an amusing reflection on the desk fan he had between his monitors to keep his hair looking pretty; abolsute approval for his handling of photographers where we each got our own smile straight down the lens and how his massive array of guitar pedals looked like he'd be fully capable of playing Mechwarrior on it.

The last couple of days I've been in London on a conference. It wasn't actually too bad - actually, the conference meal wasn't too bad - but the frustration level was critical when there were practically no outcomes or action points. I think this means I'm growing up as in the old days I'm sure train, hotel, free food and shopping time would have held my attention in itself. Now I find myself looking for something concrete. Still, I think the unusually large delegation from Latvia (or was it Lithuania) will have enjoyed their shopping in London before flying home...

Yesterday I continued my fight with my dad's PC. It's been driving me nuts for its entire life - firstly it had to be returned twice - it wouldn't boot off an 80GB drive, so I had to put in an 8GB one instead, then add a second as an external for storage etc. Easy you say - only while I was putting on software that didn't previously fit - first the CD drive fails and now the entire system is stuck in a reboot loop. Being 135 miles from my recovery CDs this got me in a tremendously foul mood but I impressed myself and managed to put it down - with plans to come down again next week and have another go. Most annoying though was I had to cancel an offer of tea and conversation as I was both busy attempting to fix it and in an increasingly black and antisocial mood.

Tonight is KMFDM in Nottingham. Or at least will be if I manage to get lots of work done today and decide I have time to sort my life out to get to Whitby - which will be based either on train-to-Nottingham or train-to-York depending. By time time I've packed the cameras I suspect I'll be travelling light.

My avid fans (whoever they are) will be pleased to hear that my photo-blog/disturbingblog will still be updating itself while I'm away.

Hmm, now that's done I'd better get on with my work. If only I had decent mobile connectivity I would be able to research what I'm writing more effectively.

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Current Mood: busy
Current Music: Glis - The Irreperable

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ant_girl From: ant_girl Date: October 26th, 2005 09:11 am (UTC) (Link)
My life always seems to be the pressured and frantically busy that you describe... In addition to trying to move house, sort out the electricity, sort out the fridge etc. I seem to have foolishly agreed to sing in a classical concert on Sunday week... and to sing a duet in it which I haven't even learnt yet! Ooops.

Better hope I don't succumb to the post-Whitby lurgy, too.
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: October 26th, 2005 10:46 am (UTC) (Link)
Better hope I don't succumb to the post-Whitby lurgy, too.

Don't even think about it! I've definitely not got time for that.
ant_girl From: ant_girl Date: October 26th, 2005 10:49 am (UTC) (Link)
Ah well, you know me well enough to know that post-Whitby lurgy wouldn't stop me doing most things anyway... but it might prevent me from singing!
kathbad From: kathbad Date: October 26th, 2005 09:12 am (UTC) (Link)
Any news on certain wedding photos?
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: October 26th, 2005 10:45 am (UTC) (Link)

I've done a "first pass" taking out the really crap ones, but not much more than that.
kathbad From: kathbad Date: October 26th, 2005 10:49 am (UTC) (Link)
It was not meant to be a hassle - I would just love to see them!

Sorry if it was an unhelpful moment to be asking - I do appreciate that you are really busy.
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: October 26th, 2005 10:50 am (UTC) (Link)
It's ok - it was a smiley "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!". I know I need to do it...
berrega From: berrega Date: October 26th, 2005 09:41 am (UTC) (Link)
You still staying tonight?
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: October 26th, 2005 10:45 am (UTC) (Link)
Unlikely. Chances are I'm not going to KMFDM and even if I do I won't have packed etc. today. Cheers for the offer though.
littleonions From: littleonions Date: October 26th, 2005 10:51 am (UTC) (Link)

Doctor Onions speaks

Sounds like the blood sugar levels of your life are the victim of a diet of spiritual sugary snacks and caffiend of the soul, you need some emotional fibre to clean you out and set you on an even keel, do not fear; I know change can be panful :P
davefish From: davefish Date: October 26th, 2005 11:42 am (UTC) (Link)
If you haven't had time to buy a new CF card yet, you are free to borrow a couple of Gb of flash for Whitby.
kneeshooter From: kneeshooter Date: October 26th, 2005 11:54 am (UTC) (Link)
Thankfully I've solved that problem. I've 4GB of new Sandisk (ow - my poor credit card) in my hand, and 2GB from ebay due to arrive tomorrow morning.

I think 10GB should be enough?!
sack_boy From: sack_boy Date: October 27th, 2005 03:26 pm (UTC) (Link)

I've just done my school/college info and noticed that you was at Sarf Hampton too - small world eh?
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