Where do you go from here?
Here? I carry on playing the game. The game never ends.
Actually over the next couple of weeks I find out I'm moving offices, I decide whether I'm going to quit my job, I get asked some LRP-related questions which can be best summed up as Catch-22 and I realise what a stupid hobby running is. Well, at least two of those are likely to happen.
Beyond that I don't know. I'm becalmed. Where did I put those electrodes...
When you discover yourself to be genuinely liked by someone, do you have difficulty accepting it at face value?
Do I need to answer this? Of course. (Thats an answer to my question and yours). I used to think that I trusted people a lot, very easily - and that's partly true. It doesn't take me long to be willing to do anything for a person. However, I don't think I ever quite believe that they trust/like/would do things for me in the same way. It's not a competition - or even something I worry about a lot. But I do sometimes.
I'm think I'm just too cynical for it all, and I keep putting my foot in my mouth, and more than that I don't always like the image I feel I'm projecting.
If you had to choose between tech and LRP, which would go first?
They kinda perform the same function at heart - they are about people. LRP is a way of meeting people and it brings a community and context, tech has a primary application to sustain that when people are not physically connected.
I'd love to say LRP, but I think the truth of the answer would be tech. Stop this world I want to get off...
I've danced around the idea of giving up LRP before - but I couldn't then. God knows what I'd do for a living then mind...
How great a part in your day-to-day life does pride play?
Some - I use it as an excuse to act up when I don't agree with what I've been asked to do - and where pride=professional integrity then it causes me huge amounts of problems. For example all my job issues now are caused by pride - it was part of the reason I left the last one, and if I didn't have it I'd have no problem sitting out this contract, taking the money, etc.
I don't often take pride in my apppearance. I'm just too lazy. Of course at the moment it's too hot too!
What's your single worst incidence of "corpsing" (being unable to keep a straight face at an inopportune moment)?
I can give you four in descending order of bad, worst last:
- Every time it happens at NWO
- Playing the "Heroes of the Revolution" rizla game at barrettyman's ultra-serious Russian game.
- At the first Crooked Eye when my corpse had a moment
- Last Sunday morning when Ziusdra went "I'm going back with Kyle... I mean Mithras". It would have been wonderful if it had been an IC slip - and in years to come I might even claim it was - but it wasn't. At that point I lost structural integrity.